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the caged bird sings (demo album)

by Claire Rivers

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1.
Let Go 03:01
The king of dreams- and the angel of actualization- they sat down- and said they had to have a conversation- she’d crossed the tracks- and there was no point in waiting- and in the black house on the other side of satan- she was singing - she was singing- she was singing- Ohhhhhh...... You’ve gotta let go now- you’ve gotta let go- You’ve gotta let go now- you’ve gotta let go- I said goodbye- to all my gold platform pipedreams- put down the phonecall to my greatest fantasies- they weren’t what they seemed- Now I’ve seen behind the curtain- I’ve been behind the scenes- and it don’t look at all like what I wanted it to be- The crossroads keep on coming on- how bigs my cross to bear- I stand in the middle of the road and all my wishes start to wear..... So I dance under the sun- and down the tracks- and toss my hair- make believe both to myself and to the world that I don’t care- All of these people push me down- but im in the sky tethered- look at me now- I can see the rest of the road- see where they want us to go- Im up here floating- golden exposed Are you ready to let go now- are you ready to watch it all fall down-Are you ready to let go ready to watch it all fall down- Once your ready to give it all up- they’ll give you the crown The king of dreams- and the angel of actualization- They stood up and they headed towards the station
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(INTRO) Annamarie is covered in a-a-amethyst- and Im just a child wondering- am I that or am I this- lover will we share another kiss- (VESE !) Take my clothes off- take it all- take my clothes off- take it all- They say that angels always look the prettiest right before they fall (CHORUS) The only thing I was falling into- the only thing Im falling out of-The only thing I was falling into- the only thing Im falling out of- is love with you (VERSE TWO) I’m not your angel anymore- I’m not your sacrificial whore- I won’t leave horseshoes over your door- I won’t dry up your snowstorms- I can’t protect you anymore (CHORUS) The only thing I was falling into- the only thing Im falling out of-The only thing I was falling into- the only thing Im falling out of- is love with you (VERSE 3) Kill my spirit- clip my wings- starve me small so I can’t sing- Still Im still shining in plain sight can’t keep you safe in this sleepless space- dreamhouse turned to a nightmare place- tears shed like snakes in the night-I fell hard and I fell fast- threw my heart across railroad tracks (OUTRO) Pull out the pins- readjust my eyes- I live in a transportable paradise- I can fly- I can fly - I can fly- I can fly with one foot on the ground- and I'm not coming down
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There are roses bloomin’ on the shore And Id feel bad to ever dream of more But sometimes this light it fills me up I get the feeling that Im riding on the cusp And do I have enough dumb luck To cross the line without spilling any blood And will it ever- ever be enough And will it ever- ever be enough (CHORUS) I ride a white horse to the ocean I ride a white horse across the line I ride a white horse to the ocean I ride a white horse across the line I drank- I drank the water I rode my horse into the sky I bet every star upon him He started to win- I started to cry My tears they turned to seafoam Realized Im never going home Theres a rodeo in heaven Im headed towards a 7 devil bull ride I’ve always been a pretty good dancer But I'm not ready to fall tonight (CHORUS I ride a white horse to the ocean I ride a white horse into the sea I ride a white horse to the ocean I ride a white horse into the sea We may never be together But we will never die Sweet dreams sweet stallion Farewell past self of mine As stars we shine together In constellation we unite I am no longer afraid We illuminate the night White star- forever hung up- and strung out so high farewell forever- farewell and goodbye sweet dreams forever- sweet dreams and goodnight- goodnight goodnight goodnight goodnight
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(INTRO) City skylines- and pretty skylights- how do you ever- sleep at night (VERSE 1) The Streetlights look like stars- so sparse and so dark- oh but they are never setting stars- and their song is sung on silent guitars- And in a room like a record store- there are shooting stars between the sheets- I glow for you- you shine for me (CHORUS) When I look at you I see- all the things that made you blue- and I wait for you in white- I dream that we could be the painted sky- Midsummer before the stars fall at night (VERSE 2) I spent two years under the moon- but the sun is rising- its coming up soon- Those with wax wings should not fly too close- Those with wax hearts should not hold too close- to the sun- to the the sun (TRANSITION) Heaven is empty- cuz I saw it myself- I’d rather go back to that party in hell- (VERSE 3) Without a penchant for pain- or a purpose for pleasure- it seem strange to me that you would endure such wicked weather- I see through the storm with the mind of a diamond and the heart of a whore But baby I’ve been here before- with gentle eyes I watch the darkness pour through the door (CHORUS) When I look at you I see- all the things that made you blue- and I wait for you in white- I dream that we could be the painted sky- Midsummer before the stars fall at night
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Stay Away 03:09
These days it seems that everywhere I go- If Im just sittin’ there- well someone wants a show- I’ve been feelin’ down- flat on my luck- seems with everything I wanna say I either have to fuck someone of fuck em' up to tell them what I mean- fuck someone or fuck em up- to tell them what I need Stay away- stay away- stay away from me- stay away or you’ll see The space between stars and seeds- deep in the depth of the darkness you’ll find me-a black canvas that was once kept clean- but got too bored of being white and pristine- Though the paint’s been splattered since the garden and Eve- Stay away- stay away- don’t put your cameras on me-Stay away- stay away- stay away from me I like it there- down in the deep- dark cold black sad sorry inbetween I like it there- tucked in the seams- with the lost stars and the sunken seeds They do -shine for me- they do- blossom in the sea- with such ethereal great beauty you wouldn’t believe Stay away- stay away- stay away from me- stay away- stay away- stay away from me Just let me go be free
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(INTRO PT 1) That girls been putting up with rain for seven days- Shes asked him kindly but he will not go away- speaks to the seeds underground to keep her safe- and when they push up she pulls petals out of place (INTRO PT2) That girls been putting daisies on her dagger- Stabs the men that think that they can have her- And if the complain she says- baby baby whats the matter- I wasnt tryna hurt you I just gave you a flower (CHORUS 1) It was only ever psychedelic violence- baby I was bleeding-but I was bleeding- diamonds and violets-yeah-It was only ever psychedelic violence- baby I was bleeding-but I was bleeding- diamonds and violets- (VERSE 1) I guess that gold parking spot- it’ll just have to wait- cuz I’ll only ride horses for the rest of my days- and I’ll ride and I’ll ride and I’ll ride away--- And if you must stay behind- in your- jewel crested cage- well write me a letter- cuz you know I cant stay- I’ll run and I’ll run and I’ll run away- - some people never change (VERSE 2) They say you gotta settle for something- but I do not breathe to collect dust in my lungs- so I pick up the phone and I run and I run and I run (CHORUS 2) I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- go ahead and chase me down- see if you can knock my crown- But i’ve never had one- i’ve just ruled myself- I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- go ahead and chase me down- see if you can knock my crown- But i’ve never had one- i’ve just ruled myself (VERSE 3) But that freedom- comes with ball and chain- cuz- if you don’t put roots down- well you’ll always stay the same- (no flowers form in the wind) (CHORUS 1) It was only ever psychedelic violence- baby I was bleeding-but I was bleeding- diamonds and violets-It was only ever psychedelic violence- baby I was bleeding-but I was bleeding- diamonds and violets (VERSE 4) I’m driven by this invisible vengeance- and is it a gift or some sort of sentence- in an autobiography out of control (OUTRO CHORUS 1+2) It was only ever psychedelic violence- baby I was bleeding-but I was bleeding- diamonds and violets I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- go ahead and chase me down- see if you can knock my crown- But i’ve never had one- i’ve just ruled myself- It was only ever psychedelic violence- baby I was bleeding-but I was bleeding- diamonds and violets- I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- I’m clean I’m free- I’ve got no gun- go ahead and chase me down- see if you can knock my crown- But i’ve never had one- I just ruled myself
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(INTRO)Yeah the fruits they are sweet- and the butter is rich- but your baby is dying- and your mamma she’s sick- so how much would you pay for one long lasting lick- say how much would you pay to delay the tick of the clock- (CHORUS)chop it up chop it up- chop it up chop it up- chop it off chop it off- I let my edges fall off (VERSE 2) I let my edges fall off- I hear the birds start to sing again- I watch the flowers bloom- and I lock hearts with you- cut into ripe flesh of fruit- let my lace swimsuit- drop (CHORUS)chop it up chop it off- chop it up chop it off- chop it off chop it off- we’re in too deep to stop (VERSE 3) stop wishing- start working- that philosophy is really hurting- you- in the time it took us to take- they gave us everything we used to think we wanted- gave it to us by mistake- now im afraid that we might make- it to the top (FINAL CHORUS/ OUTRO)chop it up chop it off- chop it up chop it off- chop it off chop it off- and all the peaches gonna pop- sold my body to those dogs- sold my soul to the gods(X2) (FINALE/ VERSE 4) And I can’t make it stop (X2 or 3)
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(INTRO) I leave my momma in the morning- and I pray that I will find my way- I’ll dig a grave right in the sidewalk- and maybe I’ll come back someday- They say Im living way too fast- and growing up too slow- and maybe thats the truth- but Ive got no place to call my home- somebody give me shelter- somebody keep me warm- somebody give me shelter- Im drowning in this storm- Ive got puddles round my eyes- and a pool between my thighs- (TRANSITION) So I call upon a saint as I weep into the night (VERSE ONE) She’s the patron saint of the sidewalk- in her day they called her the pretty noose- She’s the patron saint of the sidewalk- she knows all about salvation and a cuttin’ loose- And you could dance with her or the devil- and they’d both sway and say the same thing- and you could dance with her or the devil- they’d bring you the same pleasure and the same pain They’d say… (CHORUS) I don’t want your religion- and I don’t want your respect- I don’t want your love- and I don’t want your sex- nah- nah-nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah--- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah---- Nah- Nah- Nah- Nah- Nah (INTERLUDE/VERSES 2+3) I watched- I watched- that woman walk- right across the cross like a crosswalk One hundred heads turned to stop n stare-She was wearing her lucky underwear And I watched- I watched that woman walk -right across the cross just like a tightrope- From the circus of the city and into the woods where even gods don’t go- and we read- we read from the scriptures and the old books- and we talked- we talked about how Jesus and all those good crooks- how they died- and how our oldest friends were burned alive- but we couldn’t right- write our wrongs- the cross could have been a quill- we’d be penning poems instead of trying to kill and not be killed- and she might be singing instead of popping pills (CHORUS) I don’t want your religion- and I don’t want your respect- I don’t want your love- and I don’t want your sex- nah- nah-nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah--- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah- nah---- Nah- Nah- Nah- Nah- Nah (OUTRO) She’s the patron saint of the sidewalk- in her day they called her the pretty noose
9.
Paradise Ain’t a privelege, It’s a power- But people abuse it- And paradise ain’t in the skies- Its in hell when we get through it -And so we walk- Through the labrynth with our hearts-on-fire-Yeah paradise is underground- Though all the demons- they get used to it- But I can’t get used to it- So I’m lost in the in-between Still seven feet below looks a lot lighter than seven above- Cuz darkness is a place- it’s a place where people reach for love But my heart is whole-So im alone- But Im alone with my feet-on –the-ground- Yeah- I’m alone-But I made it out of the underground And so while the sun’s still out- I should probably go and send my roots-back-down- I’ll shoot em down- And the sun will keep on shinin’- I’ll send them out-And the sun will keep on shinin’- And if heaven is still empty- Then it looks like Hades is drawing the crowds- And if I had that unlocked box- I’d take those hearts- And I’d let em all out- I’d let em out- And I’d float them to the sky- They’d erupt- And I know that I would start to cry-Cuz I’d be alone- In unprotected paradise And if lightening chose to strike- And those hearts-bled-down- Then we’d all shed tears together- Swim right back down to Hadestown- Have a party- But my drinking days are done- Spin some records- But that pyramid song’s been sung- Dance in gold silk- But the threads have come undone- My paradise is unspun- My paradise is unspun- My paradise is unspun- My paradise has been won
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INTRO: By the way the rain hit you would have thought it was hail-and by the way the pain hit you would have thought it was hell- but in the end it was all just water- Ooohhhh oooh oh oh oh All of the lights- All of the lights- All of the lights – Seem to be burnt out baby- But your still shinin’ and it’s-makin’ me crazy I’m a moth to the flame Somebody-save me-But your no god-Guess I forgot -No your no saviour-With your black lungs-I guess that glow babe was - leftover from your last cigarette run Ooohhhh oooh oh oh oh In this burnt out town Of -molasses and mud-All the streetlights flicker -If you only look up- So shake those lights out and - and send them down- I won’t stop shining till I Leave this town- Raintown oh raintown- Raintown oh raintown- raintown oh rain rain town- just let me know when I can head back out Ooohhhh oooh oh oh oh Between black waters I -I nearly drown- But when I woke I wore gold silk and a molasses crown- I’m getting too old to try and run away- But I’m still too young to really want to stay In raintown- oh rain town- Raintown oh raintown- raintown oh rain rain town- Guess I’ll stick around Ooohhhh oooh oh oh oh 3 If you love like the sun-Well the gold will fade-The honey drips down and melts-melts away-But I love like the moon- So my lips they stain- A molasses bruise keeps the heart in it’s place When I first moved to raintown thought the- Molasses was mud- But I soon I found that cigarette ash and honey - is better than Sugar -and dry love - Yeah cigarette ash and honey- Is better than sugar and dry love- no sugar and dry love- no sugar and dry love-but - Molasses and rain- Molasses and rain- Was the only drink to make the angels stay-And they stayed- and I prayed- and they stayed- So shake it off and-Shake it down-Hell is the only highroad Out of raintown- And Ill take it down -And take it out-Take it down and- Take it out -Down and out -Down and out-Down and-Out Of the rain - Lest I go insane
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VERSE 1 I wished on raindrops like a rosary beads- hands in prayer pose over the windowpane- down there on my knees- but while I was praying you were preying over me- I just wanted you to hold me- didn’t want to see your teeth- Now I’m headed for the horses- oh I told the dogs to leave- And now I’m crying to California in the rain- tears hit the car window like gold beads bleeding over a windowpane- nothing will ever be the same- nothing will ever be the same- nothing will ever be the same- VERSE 2 If I’d had one more drink I would have tried to walk on water-half a prayer and half a bottle and I’m playing god just like my father- and I’m also reminded of good Virginia Wolfe-Sinking back into the waters that have given so much more than they have took CHORUS 1 And I’m taking the faith of our fathers and the beauty of our unborn daughters- I’m stitching up all these hearts and throwing it into the wildest wild waters- and we’re all gonna get clean- VERSE 3 I no longer believe in love- I only believe in blood- I only believe in blood-Take me to the water to bleed- drown me in the river- kill my pain and keep me clean- Oh I knew that the water would save me- but I feared that the flood would overtake me CHORUS 2 Still I’ll wade these waters alone and I’ll drag myself to shore- cuz I cried this sea myself and I could never ask for me VERSE 4 And I’m travellin’ down- down to the water- to that spot where my father used to cry- and I’m travellin down- down to the river- to the spots where my lovers left me dry- And I will sing-Sing to the sailers- of the ships of my self I left behind- Love me lightly-love me loosely- love me like the water- love me like the river-The river I am CHORUS 1 And I’m taking the faith of our fathers and the beauty of our unborn daughters- I’m stitching up all these hearts and throwing it into the wildest wild waters- and we’re all gonna get clean- VERSE 5 Still I’m weeping every wednesday night- and as the tears roll down my face- It’s like a roll a ball horse race- held at a casino with incredibly high stakes- So I- took a shot in the dark- a shot in the bar- a shot in the heart- and- I-took- it- hard CHORUS 2 Still I’ll wade these waters alone and I’ll drag myself to shore- cuz I cried this sea myself and I could never ask for me
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INTRO: There is a man I used to know- In a black castle lives alone- with crumbling walls he haunts that home- he drowns the floors with Espalon VERSE 1: I still see him sweetly in my sleep – though he’s stolen everything from me – I wake up and I weep-I know I was never truly his to keep VERSE 2: And I’m sorry for you – despite the evils that you do – because I know there are people who – cannot swallow what they shoot – and I’ve been in as much pain as you – so I have eyes that can see through…… VERSE 3: The light proof windows that you bar – dark sunglasses and tented car – ten thousand cages cast around your heart –but you protected too much-you grew weak and fell apart VERSE 4: You thought that castle would keep you together – but in its cobwebs you could not weather - anything or anyone that walked inside- so you turn the lights off and you hide- from yourself VERSE 5: Call me home then kick me out – love me until we leave the house – that red hell-trap of a home-that red hell-trap of a home-that red hell-trap of a home-that red hell-trap of a home-that red hell-trap of a home- that red hell-trap of a home- VERSE 6: That place was always swarming with ghosts – I hated you when I loved you the most - and now you’re another one of them – a musician who cannot get out though he has gotten in VERSE 7: I thought that you were something else – perhaps a bit more like myself – oh, how naïve – to believe...... TRANSITION: To believe that love can live in loneliness- to believe that love can live in loneliness-to believe that love can live in loneliness-to believe that love can live in loneliness- OUTRO: There is a man I used to know-in his black castle he lives alone- ohh-ohh-ohh- oh-oh

about

EXTENDED ARTIST BIOGRAPHY:

A little less than two years ago Claire Rivers picked up a guitar with the fierce determination to learn just enough to unleash the sounds inside. Falling completely in love with the instrument and the songwriting process at large, she decided to learn a little bit more than just enough. Along with becoming acquainted with the guitar she also came to learn piano, basic recording and engineering skills, and fundamental theory. She then wrote sixty songs and realized she was going to be living inside the sound for some time to come. This is her first album and a flag in the sand to mark the start of the long learning process and many strange adventures yet to come.
Hailing from the folky psychedelic soundscape of Austin Texas, a city where the skyscrapers still dustily echo the musical movements of the 60's and 70's, she put on her boots and settled down in the small town of Olympia, Washington. An infamous college town trapped within a time capsule of the 80's and 90's, a city where the streets still swim with ghosts of the grunge, punk, gothic, and riot girl movements of the (more than ever), relevant past.
The resulting sounds of occupied space and innate nature are nostalgic and eclectic, something like retracing old roots and growing strange new flowers. Her stripped down sound in this first half of the album is feral yet soothing, a lullaby for lions. The purity of a novice hand combined with the depth of a wise heart authentically display a full spectrum of emotion that is both relatable and otherworldly. Something that could only be expected from a domesticated alien that’s still a little rough around the edges.
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ALBUM STATEMENT/INTRODUCTION:

“There is nothing better than love. It feels good because it is the good. Love is what happens when we connect deeply with another sentient being because love is the way we experience the mysterious paradox of being the one appearing to be many. Love is the mystery aware of the mystery, so when we plumb the depths of our being we fall in love with ourselves.” - Jesus and the Lost Goddess (the secret teachings of the Original Christians)
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“And it could be a prostitute or it could be your pain, but at the end of love you’re gonna have to pay, at the end of love you’re gonna have to pray.” -IPFL
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IPFL explores themes of self resurrection and recreation using love as a metaphor for religion and religion as metaphor for love. The first half of the album, Side A: “the caged bird sings”, is a stripped down singer songwriter showcase with gentle acoustic emphasis. The soon to be released side B: “Finally In The Fire” will be electric guitar based and somewhat more produced with echoes of a full band feel. Tying the two sides of the same sky together will be the transitional albums "Ashes to Ashes" and "Dust to Dust".Side A: “I Begged For Freedom” is the silence before the storm, the ash before the rise of the phoenix bird. The motif of christ on the cross represents the consciousness of a god divided into multiplicity, the cross is a barrier which signifies the simultaneous divide and union between god and man, heaven and earth, the one and the many, ego and expansiveness. To be hung on the cross is to be suspended between conceptual modes of existence. The cross is a structured space of liminality. A waiting room for self sacrifice. Much like Odin’s self suspension for wisdom or the archetypal hanged man it is through dying that on the cross that Jesus frees himself from the ignorance of ego. The cross of light is set to fire and in the ashes of understanding we are offered the chance to renew ourselves, but were must set ourselves aflame to become the Phoenix. The third motif is that of an artist an addict. Imagine christ on a canvas instead of a cross.
In the process of putting together this album I studied the mythic lineage of the traceable love and sex goddesses as they transform over time from ancient Sumerian figures into modern day deities. An evolution which begs the question, if that old magic were alive today , how would it move through contemporary times? Witnessing the alteration and adaptation of old time religion displays the endurance of inspiration, it shows us how myth mirrors and adapts to society. Religious evolution alters the lens in which we see love. If you really want to try and understand love, you have to try on every pair of glasses.
Within the walls of the tower of Babel(on) all language was one. Love is the ultimate language, and music, is the ultimate love language. To participate in music is to be back within the walls of the tower of Babel(on). To immerse yourself in music is to wander back into the city of Babylon, one of the earliest images of utopia. Unlike Eden, it is a place that is described as having actually existed in reality as we know it. A reminder that heaven can be a place on earth. Art is the yellow brick road that will bring us back to Babylon. Art allows us to create our own worlds, so why can’t we create our own heavens? Even if you choose not to create, you can still walk the roads that the women of heaven have set before us.
In following these women with their many mysteries spun into the dazzling darkness, I found an anchor in the whore of Babylon and therefor in the undying archetype of the prostitute throughout time.
In mythology and religious scripture we see her as an allegory for ego attachment to the physical world and the separation of psyche from consciousness (i.,e Sophia, *Helen of Troy, *Isis (supposedly both in Tyre), Mary Magdalene, and even Aphrodite in some tales). More symbolically, the woman of the oldest profession often embodies elements of the archetypal independent, the outsider, the keeper of secrets, the survivor, the hidden mystic, she who knows herself. In addition, there is the over arching theme of the transmutation of pain, she who turns what she is condemned for into a means of self sustainment, she is the sorceress, the alchemist, she who gives all, she who knows love and therefor knows god.
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released March 22, 2020

lyrics and composition: Claire Rivers

guitar and vocals: Claire Rivers

audio recording and engineering: Claire Rivers

mixing and mastering: David Petty

album artwork: Claire Rivers

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